Loving him means denying her[self]
She can’t wrap her mind around that concept.
Unable to commit to promises to her own self
How could she devote time & effort to another?
Loving him means revealing her[self]
That is not allowed.
No one has permission to swim around in the depths of her soul
The same depths that she herself avoids
Suppressed memories and feelings
What makes her smile, what makes her tick
He won’t find all of that junk impressive, she tells herself
He’ll only be disappointed, I’m only great on the surface.
I’m meant to be a loner. That’s all I’ve ever been.