Loner.

Loving him means denying her[self]

She can’t wrap her mind around that concept.

Unable to commit to promises to her own self

How could she devote time & effort to another?

Loving him means revealing her[self]

That is not allowed.

No one has permission to swim around in the depths of her soul

The same depths that she herself avoids

Suppressed memories and feelings

What makes her smile, what makes her tick

He won’t find all of that junk impressive, she tells herself

He’ll only be disappointed, I’m only great on the surface.

I’m meant to be a loner. That’s all I’ve ever been.

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